Here is definitely not stuck in the land of infertility any more. I guess technically, as it turns out, I was never actually infertile. But certainly childless. That hasn't changed. Here, for now, is where I am after 7 pregnancies and 7 lost babies. Here is where I am slowly figuring out my story. Slowly telling it.
Where was I?
I was in the trenches. Actually, the truth is, after miscarriage # 6, I threw in the towel, down for the count, beaten to a pulp - pick an image that works. My blog accidentally self-destructed right around the same time I did. The weight of infertility and the desperate sadness of losing another heartbeat, another baby all forced me to take one giant step back. Maybe two or three. And I didn't even ask 'Mama may I'? Hell, I just did it. I know you get it. I think I kind of get it now. But here I am. Back. Sort of. Like a river, you can't dip yourself in the same place twice, right? So I'm back in the blog-o-sphere but it's all different. The blogs are. You are. And I know I am.